Milestones

My daughter is 20!


It was her birthday yesterday and it was lovely to pop over to see her in the evening and have a coffee at her house checking out all the presents. She had some great presents, especially from her fiancé. I am genuinely happy for her.


.......... and a teeny bit sad for me. 


That's very selfish, I know but I missed waking up in the morning, invading her bedroom and all of us jumping on her bed singing "happy birthday!" 


It's a new era and I will get used to it but it feels strange. 


I was reading all the Facebook statuses about the children going back to school and suddenly, I wished I had been an older Mum!! I had my children quite young - aged 23 with my first - and have always loved the fact that I had them young so I would be young enough when they left home to go and DO stuff.


I didn't bank on loving being a Mum so much that I would miss the chaos and noise.


It has been 2 years since I have had to do the school run (Dan was 16 when he decided to go to a school out of area and was just brill - getting himself up before me to catch a 7am bus) and I found myself reading the "School Run" statuses with a little twinge of envy. 


The "new schools", "new uniforms", those wonderful little milestones and heart tugging moments when you say goodbye at the gates .......


WOAH ------ wise up kid!  


I am sat here at 9am having brekkie in the conservatory with the sun actually shining and not having to rush around madly !!!!! 


Yeah, I miss it, but this is calmer, this is ME time and I intend to enjoy as much as I can ...till the grandchildren arrive !