Hakuna Matata

Means "No Worries" !!!!


As I am getting older I think I am worrying less - don't get me wrong - there are a million things I could worry about and I will always be hoping for the best for my children - but somehow - I am stressing less about those everyday things that used to drive me nuts ..... or make me worry at night and not sleep!


I have no job - I have no money - I am still not yet panicking - I have some work booked and hopefully that will be a small start ..... yet 3 sessions of training is still not going to pay the mortgage - so why am I so chilled ???


Is it my wonderful husband ....... naah ..... maybe his laid back attitude has rubbed off a little ......?


Is it that my children have shown how capable they really are and are all doing well ...... could be ......?


Is it that my parents are also more chilled as they grow older and that they are definitely leading the way - in just enjoying LIFE - being happy with all the grandchildren and getting their priorities sorted ..... probably .....?


I think it is a mixture of all of these things ...... and my own realisation that throughout life's trials and tribulations I have always come up smiling in the end ..... maybe not necessarily smiling - but not far off !!!


Also I have finally reached the conclusion that worrying really does make NO difference. 


I can worry about some little thing, or even some big things  .......... but the outcome will not change just because I am worrying !!!


Why has it taken 45 years to realise this? Maybe that's the nature of life and another one of those insights that come with age.


I was walking the dogs with Jess, Dan and Kieran .....(all the best blog thoughts come from walking the dogs ...... the one about fighting the zombies will come out eventually Sarah !!!)


Kieran is going to Uni soon - we will miss him. I recall all the worrying I did before Jess went - it seems like a lifetime ago now and she is back home - well, back in Bedford. 


Got a job. Having a baby. It's all working out well. 


The same with Gina - she got a good job. Now living with her fiancé. All working out well. 


When Greg and I used to take Harley for a walk together, our conversations were always about the "what ifs", how to guide the children or what to do if x/y/z happened .....


All wasted energy and no need for it ..... 


So for now ..... its Hakuna Matata  ..... and I really am quite content  - what will be will be.  I have truly learnt to accept the things I cannot change ........ for the moment at least !!!!